I have always suffered from anxiety but at certain times of my life has been worse. After children particularly.
Last night Joseph woke with a cough so I went downstairs to get the medicine and decided to make a cup of tea for my sore throat. I started panicking about my eyes going funny as they have in the middle of night but only happened when I thought about it. All of a sudden I felt weird, I was very lightheaded. Rushed upstairs with the medicine. The feeling intensified and I opened the window for fresh air and it didn't help so a collapsed on the floor. I was panicking as I didn't know what was happening. My other half was saying come sit on the bed but I was scared. I was shouting to get me to the hospital as I thought I was going to pass out. He then got me to do deep breaths then my heart was beating so fast I could hear it! I then calmed a bit then started shaking!
I knew after it was a panic attack, I have been doing too much and stressing about housework and also the fact my other half is being made redundant soon. He was trying to find a job in London but living in Cheshire its so far we wouldn't see him all week. I just accepted consciously but I guess my sub conscious was worrying.
So my plan is too firstly relax when at home today and not run around like a headless chicken. Relax and enjoy cuddles with my children. Get a chart ready to help me to remember my tablets for anxiety. My other half said he will look for jobs in Manchester so thats a weight lifted off my shoulders.
I am grateful Phil was there to calm me down and that my mum was there on the phone at 6am.
I feel for anyone that suffers from anxiety, pnd or panic!
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