My thoughts about becoming a Mum of 4

In January I will become a Mum of 4 Children aged 5, 3, and 2.  I actually can't believe I am pregnant again with my forth, these last 5 years have flown by.  When I had my daughter in 2009 I did want more children but fancied another when annabelle was about 2-3 and 5 year gap then 2 more.  Obviously broodiness took over.

I feel excited just as I did with my first pregnancy, still look at my scan photo's amazed that I have that little baby inside me.  The thoughts about what he will look like, what characteristics he will have, how the children will be together.

I feel nervous about the birth just like my other pregnancies.  I had 3 great labours so really I shouldn't worry.  But I do have memories of the pressure I felt as my babies 1 and 3 were back labours and the thought of it worries me.  The contractions don't worry me at all, that's whats so good about Gas and Air and a water birth but the pressure it doesn't stop.  But it may be like labour no2, a breeze in comparison and I was induced that time.

I do wonder what it will be juggling my newborn and Joseph my 26 month old at the time of my due date. I think because he is now 21 months old and a little monkey, infact my other half has nicknamed him tornado :)  He is a loving little boy but a little on the boystrious side and times make his older brother and sister upset.  I know he would be a bit older so hopefully easier!  Annabelle and Callum I have no worries on jugging them too as I'm sure they will become my helpers.. maybe or maybe not.

I feel I am a busy mum of 3 and I have coped so far, i'm sure I will be fine.  We just learn to adapt to new experiences and it will be an amazing experience i'm sure.